10/23/2002 - MarieMails

10/23/2002 - MarieMails

Ok...I didn't get what u said about the charming prince and neverneverland...but I guess it wasn't a compliment....Well I don't care what u might think about me. And next time I'll just keep my thoughts for me! Why am I getting so mad?? I hate it...anyway I didn't like it so instead of sending a 12 pages diary just try to help me understand I know u did..but I still didn't get it...Sorry I'm not completely fluent in english!I think I'm just tired and should go to bed..

I think I know why I reacted like that..I found it out while I went to the bathroom (nice, isn't it?)...well the reason I reacted like that is I thought that the things u said about Charming prince etc...meant, that because I'm shy and everything, I'm like waiting for the things to happen and...I don't know it doesn't make any sense now...Well and the other thing is that I feel like shit these days because of my grades and because of the fact that I never talk in class...So I don't like when I don't understand something coz it reinforces the bad things I think about myself. And because I believe the people might think I'm really not smart...and I really don't want the people to think that...

Did I ever tell u that I was VERY COMPLICATED?

Sorry for that...I wanted u to understand me but I think you’ll be even more confused after that...